Thursday, October 9, 2008
yet life has to go on......................
life without u...i feel so lost but i still have to carry on with my own life,without u.All i can do is to put on tat smile,put e past behind & start a brand new chapter of my life.It's really easy to say but hard to do it.It has been 8 mths since we broke u but y do i still love u so much?i ask myself am i crazy as in i love to be tortured?Loving u was really hard.Cos yr love was selfish...3 yrs of mentally torment and i jus cant seem to forget u a little tough i keep decieving myself,thinking that im actually slowly putting e past behind me as time goes by...ytd i went to powerhouse n really enjoyed myself to the max.dancing...even audrey says im wild.but on the way home,alicia and jason so nice to send me home, alicia suddenly said smth:cheryl u are always alone when u go hm, so poor thing.then i told her ya lor cos u wun be driving me anymore.if its not u beside me i rather i be alone...i know im silly but maybe tats no reason to explain how much u can love a person...since u already have yr own life then dun bother abt me anymore.since u already dun care then dont show me concern out of a sudden.To u it may be jus a casual question but i will feel very affected,sad and miserable.its really going to be hard to bury our past all i can do is to seal it deep in my heart and not to show it anymore.School is commencing soon and maybe tats a gd thing tat i can put my heart into studying and not think so much.Im really glad i have great friends beside me.Thks girls & guys:)Yes i will stand strong(even tough im super wea,LOL!!!) U all have to give me support kkk?? by loving yr little fren here more.hehe shopping tmr!!!Shopping,clubbing and frenz are the onli thing tat can make me happy except u.So i wanna pamper myself.Indulge in the sense of happiness and stop all tat tears tat are flowing down every nite....
her sweet memory was written @ 7:56 AM