Sunday, January 17, 2010
Havent been updating my blog for quite some time...
Firstly i have to congratulate myself and give myself a pat on my own back :)
Im really happy that finally after 5 yrs... I see your TRUE COLOURS...
Im not that silly girl u tot i still am years back....Silly to believe everything you say...
Maybe its not that i cant sense all your lies, just that im deceiving myself...So that i would feel better... So i chose to be oblivious to everything...even concerns and advices from friends who care...until they give up on me...im really sorry to those who were concerned yet i didnt heed yr advices..I was really stubborn... and that went on for 5 yrs...
For those who are close to me, u guys would know who im talking about... N u guys would have known that he impacted my life greatly...and that i havent been able to really get over it...even when i say im already fine...
Finally after 5 yrs...Im finally awake...its like being in a deep deep sleep and finally waking up now...
I guess no much yr friends can advice u... U astill have to depend on yourself to get out of that situation....Cos its only when u can persuade yourself to give up all hopes then u can start pulling yourself out of all the shit that has happened...
Phew...its really a huge relief...I think ALI can feel my relief...lol
As for "your her", im really worried....not that im jealous but i really pity her...Maybe im in no position to comment anything abt her but we are all girls...i can really feel for her....
If ever i would tell her the truth, it will a blessing in disguise...However, i dont think i want tied into this whole thing again... All i can say is goodluck....
Once again im really proud of myself :) Though its only after 5 yrs.... But at least i "woke up" right?? Its never too late ! :D
I must learn to love myself more.... I swear i dont want to be in this kinda of situation anymore
Its hard...really hard....
Im really glad everything is over.... Im looking forward to the future :) For someone who truely loves and will cherish me :)
Wish me luck k ?:)
Nite all
her sweet memory was written @ 7:00 AM